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If this is the price I have to pay for growing up, being single, and feeling alone

then okay, I accept it

Because it's not the first time I've done it

Because it's not everyday I fall so deep

Because you're not just anyone I know

Because only through pain and disappointment will I find what I want

Maybe I am needy right now because I am lonely

Maybe I am just making it worse for myself

Maybe two weeks after I will feel nothing

Like I did with him

But the fact that I feel something so strong in the past month, now, and possibly in the near future means something

You are special to me, and it's a shame that I am not to you

I would love to be your friend, just a friend

But it's probably not a good idea for me, not something for you

I am sorry

I like you enough to put you away, give you up, let you go

Even though we're only friends