16

I wonder, if I have the power of pushing people away or sending the wrong messages.

This isolated feeling is probably created by me

But I do like to feel alone sometimes

Maybe tomorrow should be a candle + ice-cream + sappy movie day~

After a little drink and wings that is.

How do I keep myself positive ans smiling?

By crying alone.

15

Life has been calmer than always, it feels great.

I hope this lasts before some horrible drama arises.

At this point though, I don't see it.

Simply because I'm not looking for drama or anything/anyone that will cost any.

On another note, the changes i sense should trigger me to a decision?

Sigh, one that I probably will regret not making or making either way.

14

It's been a while since I last blogged (okay, it may not be THAT long, but still quite a while).

So I've been pretty busy with all the end of summer trips and leading the Orientation.

August had been really great and so is September so far.

It was extremely difficult to start post #14 because I honestly don't know what I should blog about.

My emotion's been all over the place lately, and it's not the best feeling in the world.

I love love love my friends who have always been there and always hearing my complains.

They really kept me going, even though we have our moments.

I am just insanely jealous of the people who are happily committed.

Insanely is not a bad word, jealous is not a bad word; I am happy for them.

They make me smile~

Jason was telling me how our pictures together (me, him, and Wayne) makes him smile every time he sees it. I totally understand, it makes us feel like we are in the old days again.